For some very strange reason I have the strongest urge to cry myself to sleep. I don't know what is wrong with me, everything is going so well. Not the way I wanted. But still good.

Maybe its the "not what I wanted" part. Kinda like going down to the christmas tree on christmas and opening a present you really hope to be one thing, and then finding underwear. You need the underwear and it was a nice gift, but its not nearly what you had hoped and dreamed for so it ends up being twice the disappointment.

Then imaging getting laughed at for expressing such a thing to someone who loves you and cares about you. They are supposed to understand and really console you, but all you get is told proof why you should be happy. But that is what makes you happy. Not me......right? So.....how can that make me happy?

Welcome back ME.

I am moving back here cause it is sooooooooooo much simpler and I can make it pretty more easily and I can log in to it from anywhere.